Wow! I can�t believe it�s been a month since I�ve written. It�s called depression. I hate the holidays, but now that they are over, maybe things will get back on track. Still haven�t found a suitable roommate to replace David. A couple of guys have looked and are supposed to be getting back with me this week. Hummmm�what else is new? Well, work is much better now. I�ve decided I need and deserve a raise! Ya know it�s been awhile since I�ve had one, and every year the cost of living keeps going up and up and up. My wages should at least keep me even. I�m worth it and I damn well DESERVE it!
I talked to Tania last night. Oh Tania�. my best friend! What have you done now�lol�No worry, she�ll know what I�m talking about. Alex broke up with his girl. He�s SOOOOOO much better off (not even going to go into it). I�m setting Jane up with a guy who I met through my friends Char and Pam. We all went out to dinner. He seems like a nice guy, a Jane deserves someone nice in her life. Hope he likes Central City.
Ken had his wisdom teeth pulled last week. He was so funny after the surgery, all doped up n stuff. I had to promise him I�d buy him 2 wigs if he behaved himself. It worked! And we went shopping for them last Sat.
Been thinking about my folks a lot lately. I�m going to try to get to see them this spring maybe. I miss them. For Christmas Tammy gave me a box of pictures which she finally sorted through. I�ll treasure them forever, but frankly they just added to my depressed mood. Memories are good, but sometimes hurt.
12:51 a.m. - January 29, 2003
No negativity! I promise! Well, not too much anyway. Alex and I survived our trip to Oakland to see the Broncos vs. Raiders game. The Broncos got crushed, but the game wasn�t the only entertainment. Fights erupted regularly throughout the game between fans. I can honestly say now that I�ve seen 60,000+ ghetto gang member wannabes in one place. The ads shown in the stadium were for 1) Stay in School 2) Stop Teenage Pregnancy 3) Get off Drugs and 4) Be a responsible daddy and pay your child support. Those people were pathetic. Only one of our group of 50 were ejected, even though it wasn�t even his fault. Some smartass ghetto trash asshole was picking a fight, which finally resulted in all of us being doused with beer. All in all, it was interesting, but I�ll be happy if I never see Oakland, CA again.
10:24 p.m. - December 27, 2002
Lots have been happening! Let's just start with the premise that when I make an entry, it should start "WORK SUCKS"! I've been going to Breckenridge practically every day and I hate the drive�. but I digress. The good news is that I�ve finally narrowed it down to a final candidate for the Manager�s job up there, so that position should be filled very soon.
In other work related news�
I�m SO PISSED OFF! So, last weekend my boss calls me and wants to meet with me. You see our company�s annual Christmas Dinner is this week. Anyway, my boss tells me that my partner, KEN, is NOT invited because the owner of the company doesn�t want him there. HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT? I would have thought that we�ve all gotten beyond the homophobia stage in our company. I'm VERY seriously thinking of moving on in my career. I would like to explore other employment where this kind of shit doesn�t happen and diversity is welcomed. I know these companies are out there. TALK ABOUT endorsing discrimination�GEEEZ!
So�Ken said he�s find several super-weight DRAG QUEENS, about five of them, and get the table next to us at the Restaurant. How FUNNY! Or I suggested that I take a picture of him and put in on the place setting next to me. I�m really inclined to say, �FUCK THIS� and not go at all, but my friend Jane, who I work with, wants me to go so she�ll have someone to talk to. I don�t know what I�ll do yet. Ken is very understanding and tells me to go.
Why do I always have to be pissed off about something? I need to learn to just get over it.
10:50 p.m. - December 17, 2002
Wooohoo! My very best friend Alex and I have to go down and pick up our tickets for our San Francisco trip on the 22nd. He won them for the Broncos vs Raiders game from a local radio station. They are round trip air, hotel and game tickets in San Fran! Unfortunately, I get to fly back home alone because he is leaving directly from SF to Mexico City to visit his Mom for Christmas.
I got my Christmas cards sent out. If you didn't get one, it's because I either don't know you or I don't have your address. Whew! Another Christmas chore done. I wish it were over.
Still looking for a roommate to replace David. So far no luck. I'll have to place an ad when I get paid.
9:51 p.m. - December 10, 2002
Good News! Well, maybe. You remember the manager problem I was having, that solution didn't work out, BUT I have some interviews lined up in response to the ad that was run. PRAY FOR ME!
In the meanwhile, we got the Christmas tree up tonight. Whooopee! (can you tell I'm really excited?) Actually, Christmas is ok, but I could do without the hassle and fuss, and especially THE SHOPPING! I know, I'm supposed to like shopping....typical sterotype.
I think Eric (my son) is supposed to be over this weekend. I better confirm that. I might have to goto Breck on Sunday.
10:10 p.m. - December 04, 2002
WOW! So much going on. But first the shitty stuff, like WORK! ugh! Now don't get me wrong, normally work isn't that big of deal but recently.....oh wait! I must first tell you what I do.
I'm a Convenience Store supervisor. I have 4 stores in my territory. Well, about the 1st of November my territory was reassigned. Included in my territory now is the store in Breckenridge, Colorado. I HATE THAT STORE! More exact, I hate the drive to that store. I usually have to drive there a minumum of twice a week.
Ok, now that you have the background, last week the Manager of that store gave his notice. That store is a BITCH to find someone to run it. If I don't, and soon, I'll have to make that shit ass drive every goddamn day! My Life sucks!
Last week was Thanksgiving. Ken (my partner) and I had six guests over and I made dinner. You know, the usual, turkey, stuffing,...blah blah. Our guests were Allen & Dustin, Kamen, Steve, Daniel and Richard. Dispite all the work of fixing (and cleaning up) we had a good time and it was actually tasty.
12:53 a.m. - December 03, 2002
Oh what to do? Ok, I've thought about this diary thing. What shall I use it for? I know what I'd like to use it for. As an open, honest place to enter my thoughts, but at what cost? Let me explain......
If I'm honest, especially my thoughts about certain people, and those people ever read this I'm sure some things wouldn't be too flattering. As any outsider reading these thoughts, they might even think they are horrible.
So�. My dilemma, do I only say the nice things? Do I completely ignore what I�m really thinking? Is that truth? More and more that I think about it, what then is the point? Perhaps things should be kept secret. Hummm......more pondering is required. Perhaps tomarrow I'll come up with an answer.
11:32 p.m. - November 25, 2002
OK, so I've decided that I need to write something....anything! Maybe it will help the anxiety I feel sometimes. Maybe it's just be stupid stuff which makes no sense to anyone. I'll just have to see how it turns out. So, for the first time test, this is it.
7:22 p.m. - November 24, 2002
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